the story so far

going through trials, challenges, tests and uncountable issues has time and time again test us. it has never been easy and sometimes it makes him wonder if everything is meant to be? he looked with envy whenever he walk down streets at others and wonder why is everything so difficult and so hard and near impossible. yes, he couldnt agree more with her that the issues they faced supercede (see the enforced word) the happy moments they share. indeed every individual is unique and definitely different but those challenges they often faced, prove to be more of a stumbling block and each time, it gets harder to overcome...

even so, many a times, even a compromise seems like a challenge. both of them, equally hotheaded, stubborn, easily-irritable... omg~ character clashed? seems like what u will get in a movie huh? lol~ ultimately, the world will only become a better place if you or me exclude ourselves right? since this way it will move towards perfection. we are all imperfect beings after all! still, the smile on her face wipes off every sadness and disappointments. the smile that dawns upon the stars. threatens to put all fear and despair at bay... (i love to use an apple a day, keeps the doctor at bay - a smile a day, keeps the pressure away! :p) anyway, given the imperfection they both faced, its inevitable that frictions will spark. ultimately, y win the battle if one will only lose the war?

moving in tat direction, slowly but surely, his female counterpart seeks to change to gain his approval but change is such a drag... he feels uptight, scared, fearful but deep down, a stir to hope against all hopes, to believe amidst all unbelief, to have faith even when all has failed again and again. the woman, to keep on improving and change, to wan to show herself worthy, to prove herself like a champ... both stumbles when the expectation and the stakes gets really high... both are experts in their fields but why cant they get out of the fix they always drop into? why have i went wrong? they both begin to wonder with no answers in mind... lost, disillusioned, detached and the space between them grows...

she wants to be a keeper, yet dont know how to? given all that pride, she holds back... why would she be following her damn brain and not her heart? the opposite happens for him!! argh~ clash yet again... yet both know deep down, the immerse feelings that draws strength for one another... it arent easy huh? he wonders because, her smile, her tenacity, her charm, her hands is his everything already... unknown to himself, she has become part of him... likewise for her, suddenly, reality strikes and he becomes constant on her mind as well... ultimatly, the real test for both of them has yet to come... sometimes both of them wonder, where's our honeymoon? OFTEN PPL SAY, honeymoon is part 1, clashes are part 2 but why are they in part 2? weird huh... still, love propels us to try again and again. thats y its still the greatest of them all along faith and hope.

god is interesting and his ways are higher than everyone's... working to please one another can b tough and thus we all have issues with one another. we avoid them but they come n hunt n cling on us... we are all "tuned" to judge, assume quickly because its how our world is shaped, yet, if we take time slowly, we may see the beauty in each other. what other people's real intentions are... if ppl we hold close to and have known for awhile, still carries the same hostility like strangers, have we spent the time to know each other gone futile? understanding and listening needs to go hand in hand to become active listening. even so, our head processes faster than the other person's speech. maybe in return of listening, ourselves can learn something new? something that we ourselves can incorporate? sometimes we can avoid? if one has to be stubborn, it would really be worth if he/she is stubborn for the right reasons, a reason, you know you are willing to give up or die for. this makes you and me a person who has an attitude, the right kind. at least, we are remembered for a worthy cause.

Who am I

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name, Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way, For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am. But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.


Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love And watch me rise again
Who am I? That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain, And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am. But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are.