i wanna blog but apparently stupid blogger is having some problems and i cant blog with pics.... like dat how...
anyway, i'll be blogging some due entries and start on an awesome blog entry thats been awaiting by some close friends. its about the Marketplace Convention I went some weeks back which has been a really life changing experience. anyway, before that. lets wait for blogger.com to wake up their idea and fix the problems first.
cheers~
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Stones
its been awhile since i blogged coz i'm busy with my prep for my exam this coming sat. i was thinking whether should i blog abt this matter thats been on my mind this couple of days but heck, i decided to "rant" about it afterall since its my blog! *like pst; this is my church, i can say what i want!" lol~
anyway, i've been dealt with another blow which i thought i could easily overcome since i discern with a second confirmation fr a dear one some time back. sometimes i believe most think alike that; if possible, one would rather let a premonition not come to pass. i simply overestimated myself and my capacity. the truth only set me back further and this was probably the "finishing blow" for me. it came no better time than a week before my exam likewise 2 months plus ago. if anything is bad, i think this is probably the worse state of mind i'm in. i thought i could be cool about it but i was so wrong.
i began to wonder what have i done to reap such catastropohic fruits. i wanted to cry but it seems that my tears have either dried up or the anger/anguish/despair has flushed in and overtaken my head. i prayed but i couldn't rid my head of possible images even till today. yesterday was worse and i totally couldnt concentrate at all. sat i almost ruin a friend's bday. is this something i deserve, i questioned myself. the belief, vision, dreams and love given to your closet aides and it all came back in a way which haunts you, i simply am exasperated and lost. if you ask me, am i angry, i would give a outright yes and if possible, i wanted to be vengeful. someone told me to get back at them in all sorts of ways but i knew by doing that, i would only hurt and shortchange myself.
Yet, is this how my god will react? that would definitely be a no-no. to repay such outcomes with love is what i'm taught but words are easier said than done. i learnt and been repetitive with my words that love is kind and such words are words that would appear time and again even when ugly images showed themselves in my mind. can i comprehend the situation, i can't and yet i had to deal with them. i could simply label them anything and think the worst of the whole thing and yet, i wanted to shower them with the benefits of doubt even though it pierces my heart deeper and deeper.
i told god: you healed my heart and sew it and now its being stabbed again and torn apart, i cant handle this. If being at the forefront to be a CGL meant so much, can i not be one? but i already had my answers before even i asked because i knew i had to account only to one person. inasmuch it pierces my heart so deep that even i could almost feel it physically, i knew i had to love and forgive and even bless them... as i was in a state of despair, i remembered something which i wanted to share,
to pick up the
1) Stone of the Past-His goodness
2) Stone of Prayer
3) Stone of Priority-God-first
4) Stone of Passion-run on!
5) Stone of Persistence-keep on keeping on
i'm really thankful for Him and all the good people around me once again coz as emotions well themselves up inside this very moment, i couldnt help but want to cry but this i know are tears of joy and victory. Crisis really breaks us but let's champion them! :)
anyway, i've been dealt with another blow which i thought i could easily overcome since i discern with a second confirmation fr a dear one some time back. sometimes i believe most think alike that; if possible, one would rather let a premonition not come to pass. i simply overestimated myself and my capacity. the truth only set me back further and this was probably the "finishing blow" for me. it came no better time than a week before my exam likewise 2 months plus ago. if anything is bad, i think this is probably the worse state of mind i'm in. i thought i could be cool about it but i was so wrong.
i began to wonder what have i done to reap such catastropohic fruits. i wanted to cry but it seems that my tears have either dried up or the anger/anguish/despair has flushed in and overtaken my head. i prayed but i couldn't rid my head of possible images even till today. yesterday was worse and i totally couldnt concentrate at all. sat i almost ruin a friend's bday. is this something i deserve, i questioned myself. the belief, vision, dreams and love given to your closet aides and it all came back in a way which haunts you, i simply am exasperated and lost. if you ask me, am i angry, i would give a outright yes and if possible, i wanted to be vengeful. someone told me to get back at them in all sorts of ways but i knew by doing that, i would only hurt and shortchange myself.
Yet, is this how my god will react? that would definitely be a no-no. to repay such outcomes with love is what i'm taught but words are easier said than done. i learnt and been repetitive with my words that love is kind and such words are words that would appear time and again even when ugly images showed themselves in my mind. can i comprehend the situation, i can't and yet i had to deal with them. i could simply label them anything and think the worst of the whole thing and yet, i wanted to shower them with the benefits of doubt even though it pierces my heart deeper and deeper.
i told god: you healed my heart and sew it and now its being stabbed again and torn apart, i cant handle this. If being at the forefront to be a CGL meant so much, can i not be one? but i already had my answers before even i asked because i knew i had to account only to one person. inasmuch it pierces my heart so deep that even i could almost feel it physically, i knew i had to love and forgive and even bless them... as i was in a state of despair, i remembered something which i wanted to share,
to pick up the
1) Stone of the Past-His goodness
2) Stone of Prayer
3) Stone of Priority-God-first
4) Stone of Passion-run on!
5) Stone of Persistence-keep on keeping on
i'm really thankful for Him and all the good people around me once again coz as emotions well themselves up inside this very moment, i couldnt help but want to cry but this i know are tears of joy and victory. Crisis really breaks us but let's champion them! :)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Cedric's Wedding
attended cedric's wedding on sun, couple days back. man, bro, u shocked me but i'm happy for you! disappeared for a few months and back with a phone call telling me u're getting married!! 0_0anyway, i'm really really happy for you coz i always hold u dear to my heart. times we went thru together being poor yet happy just talking amongst us 3 with wilson. although we have went on our own ways to create a better future, those are the times i will never forget coz we were poor together but we shared everything. we stayed at one another's place lol~ yew tee, tiong bahru, pasir ris!! lol~
seeing ya getting married really brought lots of emotions to my mind and yet i also wished that i'll be the next one, pity that wont be happening any time soon. =X
as you move on to the next phase of life, i hope and pray for the better of your family and with an additional member. happy to see your mum saying such touching things to you, simply proud of you and everything about you, bro. may god bless and guide your path and everything you do!! a bliss and fruitful marriage and let what god put together, let no man come between!! be blessed! :)
will be concentrating on my exam, wont be blogging for abit. :) cya guys around!
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Latest Hoot
was really looking forward to getting my 1st iphone for a long long time. its really been a rollercoaster fr registering myself at the booth and going back aft cg meeting to collect it. i thk god for giving me favour, protection and guidance else i would proli go back at 3+. i read online that those who came aft 6pm queued for a good 7 hrs. i tot i had to re-queue aft leaving to meet the people. but i decided to try and ask if i could, you know, move foward faster :p
anyway, i paid only a nominal fee of $108 after factoring all the discounts in. real happy coz i wasnt willing to pay so much anymore for a phone. got an additional usb charger for free coz of a $30 voucher fr Singtel. apparently, i spoke to the staff there, they said they hoped to go back at 4am if possible since last yr they worked thru the night till nx morning for a good 24hrs. poor things. my CSO was really friendly and the gal that assisted me with payment was really a nice lady. i always tot that the younger generation are a bunch of insensitive, immature kids tat have yet to see reality but this lady brought a new insights to me and i pray, she will soar to greater heights! :)will be heading over to singtel to get another sim card with the same number to use the iphone since i'll b using 2 phones concurrently. the iphone will be my entertainment gadget. lol~ den heading over to challenger to get a nice casing to protect the phone! for now, Iphone FTW!!
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Day 1 of Marketplace Convention-9/7
i was there at the convention for 2 days. it has been an eye-opener and great experience to be there with Dr Bernard. teaching us about so many revelations, insides, models and information. i felt so charged up and excited aft attending this great seminar. i will update more with the things i've learnt, so blessed.
went to eat Sin Swee Kee again since i was unfamiliar with anyone there. it wasn't a good networking experience since there weren't a single soul i knew which was the only sad thing for me during this entire convention (pity~). anyway, i headed over to Sin Swee Kee to have their chicken rice again and it was as good as ever. the tofu was good but the sauce disappointed the tofu as a below average supporting cast. it was a quite "watery" which was different fr most thai sauce tofu i tried (i'm a tofu-person).
overall it was nice and filling and i almost couldnt finish the rice. headed back to the convention for round 2 lol~
went to eat Sin Swee Kee again since i was unfamiliar with anyone there. it wasn't a good networking experience since there weren't a single soul i knew which was the only sad thing for me during this entire convention (pity~). anyway, i headed over to Sin Swee Kee to have their chicken rice again and it was as good as ever. the tofu was good but the sauce disappointed the tofu as a below average supporting cast. it was a quite "watery" which was different fr most thai sauce tofu i tried (i'm a tofu-person).
overall it was nice and filling and i almost couldnt finish the rice. headed back to the convention for round 2 lol~
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Tuesday 7/7
went for Dr A.R Bernard's leader's meeting today. jus came back not long ago. i think its really a great message shared by Dr Bernard. i feel alot of drive and if only i can retain all that was thought by him. i think proli i'll start confessing and thinking about everything that's being taught today.
i feel that i really have so many things i needa review myself about especially in the area of the accountability matrix. sadly, the truth hurts but it allows room for growth and improvement. i think i belong to the category of having the right behaviour and yet not achieving. although at first i thought," at least i'm having the right behaviour" but sadly, i'm pulling others down. sigh~
i want to breakout of this and be an achieving person! i think i'm slowly entering the state of crystallization and i thk god i receive a word in season to stop me fr sinking further. its high time i got back to doing the first works and seek revelation and brand new ideas to get myself pumped up and motivate my people!! "sanctify myself so that my people can be sancitfied through Me"
its always impt to return to our roots so that we remember who we are and where we come from. it serves 2 purposes. Mainly to remember the hard times we went through and secondly, the good times we experience and never to forget both.
likewise for leadership. with leadership comes dedicated authority. sometimes we see how our managers (example) function and we form certain forms of views that leadership incorporates some aspects of hypocrisy. but it was not so to begin with when leaders are made. there's this complementing, no, rather, a vital characteristic of " the higher you go, the lower you also will go"
we all tend to be consumed by the authority, power that we've gotten and want to make people serve or work for us but the matter of a fact is, the higher we climb, the more we should serve others and this we call it dedicated authority where we're responsible for the authority bestowed to us.
so many a times, we see leaders fall and we wonder why and how can we avoid such things if we ever become a leader ourselves. indeed, its our character that sustains us. "our attitude will determine our altitude". we can use all sorts of ways to rise to authority but will we be able to sustain there? i leave the answers to you.
i feel that i really have so many things i needa review myself about especially in the area of the accountability matrix. sadly, the truth hurts but it allows room for growth and improvement. i think i belong to the category of having the right behaviour and yet not achieving. although at first i thought," at least i'm having the right behaviour" but sadly, i'm pulling others down. sigh~
i want to breakout of this and be an achieving person! i think i'm slowly entering the state of crystallization and i thk god i receive a word in season to stop me fr sinking further. its high time i got back to doing the first works and seek revelation and brand new ideas to get myself pumped up and motivate my people!! "sanctify myself so that my people can be sancitfied through Me"
its always impt to return to our roots so that we remember who we are and where we come from. it serves 2 purposes. Mainly to remember the hard times we went through and secondly, the good times we experience and never to forget both.
likewise for leadership. with leadership comes dedicated authority. sometimes we see how our managers (example) function and we form certain forms of views that leadership incorporates some aspects of hypocrisy. but it was not so to begin with when leaders are made. there's this complementing, no, rather, a vital characteristic of " the higher you go, the lower you also will go"
we all tend to be consumed by the authority, power that we've gotten and want to make people serve or work for us but the matter of a fact is, the higher we climb, the more we should serve others and this we call it dedicated authority where we're responsible for the authority bestowed to us.
so many a times, we see leaders fall and we wonder why and how can we avoid such things if we ever become a leader ourselves. indeed, its our character that sustains us. "our attitude will determine our altitude". we can use all sorts of ways to rise to authority but will we be able to sustain there? i leave the answers to you.
Toy Convention@Arts Museum
bro gordon and me~
chio jiejie, i like!~ :o
darth vader!~
darth and his ginnas taking a break at the tree, preparing for an indian scene =X
had much fun and in the end, dwelled about 2 hrs there bz photographing. you can view more pics on my facebook(provided you have it *evil grin*)
woke up early on last sun to attend the toy convention. i was dead beat since i slept at abt 4am on sat. it was a fruitful trip although there isn't much toy features coz proli most are not what i'm looking for. but i have to say that the prices at the convention is really really very cheap. i managed to get 1 figma mikuru Hatsune at cut price. about 40% savings off its RRP. anyway, the main event was the cosplays and 501st road march on that day. i haf much fun taking pictures.
chio jiejie, i like!~ :o darth vader!~ darth and his ginnas taking a break at the tree, preparing for an indian scene =X had much fun and in the end, dwelled about 2 hrs there bz photographing. you can view more pics on my facebook(provided you have it *evil grin*)left with august to csc to check out some stuff b4 we went on our own ways. i went to met my mum for high tea at Zhou's Kitchen. was a nice high tea since its been awhile since i had some nice dimsum. recommended to all since its not pricey and there's about 30 over dishes to choose from. quality is acceptable at the price offered for ala carte buffet. $16.90++
next wk onwards will be busy preparing for my upcoming exam in couple of wks time. cheers!~ excited about this paper! lol~
Valrhona Chocolate Cupcakes
Really much thks to Philia for letting me try out this really amazing chocolate cupcakes. she made them and i tell you, it really really changed my perception about cupcakes.
in the past, i really dislike eating cupcakes. i even tried Famous Amos' and it didnt matter. cupcakes, in my opinion have always been dry, boring and sometimes, worse of all, hard. i don't fancy cupcakes and even when after visiting philia's blog, i didnt take much of an interest.
the other day, i was talking to her about pastries and cakes and how most of the times i have a sweet tooth blah blah. then she said she want me to try her cupcakes. then i was kinda excited coz she talked about using valrhona gourmet chocolate, no preservatives to make this lovelies.
i tell you, i was actually taking a short break fr pastries after having them for the past 2 mths of having Bakerzin's cakes.
in the past, i really dislike eating cupcakes. i even tried Famous Amos' and it didnt matter. cupcakes, in my opinion have always been dry, boring and sometimes, worse of all, hard. i don't fancy cupcakes and even when after visiting philia's blog, i didnt take much of an interest.
the other day, i was talking to her about pastries and cakes and how most of the times i have a sweet tooth blah blah. then she said she want me to try her cupcakes. then i was kinda excited coz she talked about using valrhona gourmet chocolate, no preservatives to make this lovelies.
i tell you, i was actually taking a short break fr pastries after having them for the past 2 mths of having Bakerzin's cakes.
i couldnt help but wanting to try them jus by looking at them. lol~ the taste is really ()*(_()+()!#$#%$^%*%
you may think i'm trying to be vulgar here but hell NO! the taste is unexpressable in the immediate situation i'm in. i simply fell in love with them and immediately made an order of 15 (subject to approval fr thy baker chef) the cupcakes was rich in chocolate and it was a lil' bitter yet fulfilling. i let 1 of my friends tried and she was taken aback! lol~ anyway, i would be back for more philia! wahahahaha~
pls visit philia's blog for updates, orders and enquiries:
fyi, her orders are packed till november if i didnt forget. =x
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Victor's birthday Celebration
celebration on fri at my place. i saboed vic... =X
its my beloved buddy, victor's birthday. i think vic's proli one of the best friends to be around. wise, patient and kind. i think this is the kind of friends that you gotta be around with. its always good to listen and exchange opinions with him coz its kinda like iron sharpening the iron.anyway, vic's really cool and "on" in participating in the cheer by Fish & co's crew. had much fun and proli i believed memorable for him. bro wish u best in your future endeavours. known u for a decade plus. i pray that our friendship will grow and really happy for you as you move into your new place with liping to begin a brand new chapter of your life! be blessed!
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