Heart vs Mind

to follow your heart than your mind? which is the correct choice? sorry fellows, i have no answer for you if you asked....

so often we get into what i deem "chicken and egg" situation and get really lost, confused, frustrated, uptight and irritated. possibly with ourselves. i wonder what would it be for myself if i was to come to this standstill? truth foretold, im in this situation!!!! crap! lol~

i was jus sharing with my bestie that: 'it is so hard to do what's right even if you know its right.' its stinging and frustrating and it gets to one, devouring our energy and focus. most of the time, we struggle not in the black and white zone but in the grey zone; no doubts abt it, but we will be challenged time n time again of our character. knowing what's right and actually fulfilling/doing it, i would say, it can be 2 different stories. pressures pile and pile, all around you seem oblivious and it can get harsh.

the human is weak after all. coming to a point where one feels stagnant, confused, lost, disappointed, discouraged devours mercilessly and devoid of the right frame of mind all of a sudden. movement still in place but into delusion. seeking to avoid, to suppress and disconnect. and possibly ignorance will bring temporal comfort but day-in day-out, a state of oblivion and despair creeps. simply do not know how to react or what to do. the state of mind starts shattering.

its so hard, so hard... yet, grace abounds, mercies that flows because we're only weak than we can be made strong. making a decision to do what's right even with a feeble heart, it serves to strengthen and be encouraged. here is love, poured out so freely. yet the choice of freedom is still available for one to make the right decision. crumbling before pressures or pressures can crumble before us. leaders are constantly tested in keeping their cool under immense pressures and never getting their ego involved. this is because our feelings cannot touch god but our faith does...

the world may fall, but you never fail
i sought to run, but you sought for me
you waited in silence, with grace and mercy
even i turned my face, you kept waiting
in folly and unfaithfulness, you remained faithful
devoid of choices, you offered unrelentlessly
you never forget despite my ungratefulness
your love, has become my sweetest devotion
to let me find you once again...

when i don't know what to do... y did i disconnect and choose to crumble?