i was just chilling out ytd night sleeping in for many many hours aft going for a small mini gathering cum celebration at CM-PB at dempsey. then i was reading something that caught my attention even later i saw something shocking! @.@

okok, taking the explicit matter aside, the heart of the matter was it amazes one that despite failures, strengths can be retained and flaws can be reduced or cast aside bit by bit. i saw a beautiful story foretold which touched me. like i shared earlier on, despite all in all, nothing in me will change the way i will ever heart the woman i hold. it was more magical was that the person wrote in a manner that surpasses," i will never ever let go..." a love that gives will bring about such revelation to one...

i wrote on my fb on sat aft my convo coz it dawned upon me when i saw a note that "some people are just around to rub shoulders with you but there are also those who are willing to go with you through it all..." i vividly remembered that once, someone having received much, not having to pay back his/her gratitude, sought to take yet again. i don't know what was going through the mindset but yet, it only further sadden or disappointed me. seeing such a situation, it only brought a sense of despair because even though there're givers and receivers in this world, there's also the term that what goes around will come around... without remorse, i will say that though we were all strangers to begin with, the saddest part will be having to return to a state of that beginning.

as i graduate, i will want to hold on to the bonds i treasure when i told my close mates that if we don't upkeep the friendships/relationships, it will be lost over time. i think it was through thick and thin, we value one another. an atmosphere of celebration hid a tinge of sombre feeling. those that weren't really close ties suddenly became valuable (apart from those really hi-bye to begin with). thanks and gratitude were exchanged but not casually because who knows when will we cross paths again...

our human selfish nature really deteriorated our society and how we treat one another... sometimes, even being taught to love in our own religion, we still cant escape this fact that we take people for granted. we choose to pick 'fire-fighting' instead of prevention and later realise that maybe it was too late after all? what to do? if only i chose to heart wisdom but given so, having more wisdom, to me at least, can be a scary part but still i will still want more wisdom because i really so much want to do the right things, say the right things at the right time.

I learnt that its really much easier to trust in what's convenient and easiest thing at hand to use it but probably it will not yield the best results but still get the job done. but maybe if i be still and wait and ponder, it will help... thus when people say they will not be like so and so, its really easier said than done and we're all guilty of this matter. because sometimes, certain things have been ingrained into us and we commit the same old mistakes that others have done before and we wonder why (if we ever realise).

really, let us, at least for me, to learn to CHOOSE LOVE... at least the motivation will set forth a new dimension... on sat, my buddy insisted that its firm that im the one at fault when something went wrong some time back. it was easy to want to defend but i said without a second thought that yup, regardless what, its my fault despite that eagerness to prove my point. without a doubt, despite so, if i choose love, though in the eyes of everyone that i was wrong, it will be alright because god is judge and not me. we want to prove a million points and seriously, whatever to our points and crap. why try so hard!?!? if my motivation was love, that says it all... one day, the account is answered not to man and even i try so hard, it amounts to nothing... Let's choose love...